Hello Lastchance:We all have scars in our lives, some smaller than others. This is one of those ugly, big ones that you don't even want anyone to see.
You are right: it is a big and ugly scar... and takes a lot of time to feel better... the process is low and hard... I realized I was scammed about eight months ago and even though I am concious that the man in the photo it is not "real", sometimes I remember my scammer, that man in whom I trusted and fell. You will see the light at the end, believe me. Stay strong and celebrate your life.