Hi my xxxxxx!
I was waiting for your email with fear and with pleasure
at the same time! And I am very happy to receive your letter! I am ready
to jump and dance, laugh and sing songs! And the reason - you xxxxx!
Thank you for your letter and your thoughts. I am so happy that we can meet.
Now I have the ocean of emotions but I don't know how to express them.
I am worried very much. I really hope that we can spend
time perfectly together. I am just afraid, that if we meet, I will ask so many
questions and chatter unceasingly, that you will escape from me soon...lol
My interview will via week. This time I can
arrive to you. But unfortunately the schedule is not flexible.
Therefore I hope you will be glad to meet me at this time. If you have not
enough time, I will be happy all the same. I will be happy in any case.
It is better to wait when you will come from work, than to sit in my
apartment and to know that nobody will come!!! I think preparations
for travel will be about two weeks. Complexity of approval of the papers,
visa will be reduced to a minimum as I will have petitions and characteristics
from a work place, from respected organizations and legal people;
guarantee documents and various sorts of the information and inquiry,
which will be given to commissions I will get the petition and a
testimonial from Ministry of Health of the Russian Federation! Except of that
I will pay for preparation for the commission.
Every day I think - what my friend xxxxxx will tell me today, what mood he
will have today? And as soon as I get a free minute, I rush to the teachers'
room to find out if you have written to me or not. And when I receive
your letter, I start to smile from ear to ear having the best time of
my day - time when I read your letter and when I write to you all my
thoughts. These are the most important minutes of my day.
Sometimes I think what would happen if I have not found the strength in myself
to write you? What would happen if I didn't believe that I could find a man in
such a way? I always want to think that I'm a courageous woman, but I feel
that actually it is not so. I am ready to give my life for the sake of
person who is close and dear for me, I am ready to donate my well-being
for the sake of well-being of another person but when I think of myself, I
often become timid and all my boldness disperses like the fire's smoke.
I am often afraid to do something, to take some steps just because of
fear that it will be an incorrect step. I am often afraid to ask people
about anything simply because of fear to get the negative answer.
Not always, but it happens. What would happen if you have not
answered my letter? Nothing would happen! And grey monotonous days would
lie on a way of my life by infinite impenetrable veil. Do you want to know
what I did today? Firstly, I should tell you that I slept with a smile on my face!
At least when I woke up and looked at the mirror, I noticed
that I was smiling! Then I brushed my teeth and I had a smile! Then I jog and I
smiled as if actually I watched funny movie. Then I cooked
breakfast and drank a coffee with a smile on my face!
Then, I came to clinic, and I could not hide my smile. I was ready to
laugh and I at all had no desire to work! It is a very bad symptom for
the pharmacist! Everything around seemed me beautiful and
wonderful. And even the severe boss, when saw that I look at him and I
smiled, he began to survey himself attentively and even came near to
the mirror to see if anything wrong! He thought that something was
wrong with his clothes! All the day I worked with the smile on my
face! Amanda looks at me and smiles as well. Of course she understands
the reason, and it makes her happy as well! And when time of sleep
comes, I will lie in my bed with the same smile on my face! And if you
till now have not understood why I smile, I will tell you! I smile
because I think of you, xxxxxx! And it brings me joy!
But now I have to go I will not have a lot of time after work because after
work I will have one more working day! :-) You may ask what I mean?
The preparation for my trip! You cannot imagine at all how many deals I
must do for our meeting! I even have asked the boss
to allow me to take some hours off in the middle of day to do some
things, because after 5pm the departments are closed. Thoughts
about our meeting give me force and energy! I am sure that everything will
be perfect! I will wait for your letter! Please, write me because I need your
letters and support more than ever!
With Love and Kisses!
Always your Anastasiia!
Received: from [10.16.183.18] ([95.168.190.134])
Date: Mon, 25 Oct 2021 10:45:44 +0900
From: Anastasiia <anastasiiasiirgiiva@gmail.com>
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